Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Psycotherapy Anyone (Weeks 7,8 and 9)

OKAY, OKAY - Its harder to blog when you have been unsuccessful, generally when someone is quiet they have not met their own expectations and this is the case right now...  Up until and including week 6 I had not posted a gain, well, the last three weeks were ALL gains, this is not going as I expected or anticipated.  NOW, with that being said I only gained 2 pounds over those three weeks.  My total lost to date is only 13.6 pounds or 3.75% of my body weight, the leaders are at or over 10% so I wont be winning this contest BUT that wont stop me from putting up a good fight over the next three weeks and beyond.

The POSITIVES:  This last monday I came in and weighed in and was UP       8.4 pounds since last weeks weigh in, I ended up only gaining .4 pounds for the week...  So, thats a positive...

I don't know what gets into me sometimes, when I go off the plan I REALLY go off the plan, it was ALL weekend long, too many drinks, too much TACO BELL drive through and too much BURGER KING, it was ugly, like a spoiled child ugly... 

Now, before you said "its okay, you've done pretty good, two pounds isn't that bad" I have to say its not really the 2 pounds that is getting me its my total disreguard for my health and my physical being that I have from time to time that REALLY bothers me... 

Maybe secretly I LIKE being big, maybe my subconscience is out to sabatoge me, maybe I like standing out in a crowd I dunno but there is probably more to this than meets the eye.  Maybe I need PSYCO therapy or ELECTRIC shock treatment, or maybe I just need to grow up and get my head out of my ass...

Hope your journey is all you want it to be...

KEEP THE FAITH and FIGHT THE FAT - BC

6 comments:

Seth said...

Stay focused. It's never easy and sometimes we get off track. Surround yourself with things that will help and not hurt your progress.

you said it -- fight the fat.

FogDog said...

I'm not going to say "it's ok, 2 pounds isn't that bad" because I don't think that's what you need to hear right now. Instead I think you need to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back at it!

Remember the fall, learn from it, then forget it and move on! Best of luck, stay strong!
-FogDog Weight Loss

Missa said...

Make sure you write/blog/whatever regardless if it is bad news. We are all here to cheer one another on and to strategize a bit better.
I stay on the path when I force myself to be accountable.

Cheers,
Missa
LosingEthel

Sayre said...

I know what you mean. I have been walking the treadmill, but compensating by eating more because "I'll be working it off." then I get on the scale and nothing's changed (though I admit things are firming up a bit).

As an experiment, I gave up coffee and dessert type things for Lent. No cake, cookies, pie, etc. for me. I am allowed sugar-free ice cream, pudding or jello - and I let myself have chocolate. What I found was that it was surprisingly easy to give up those things when I decided I couldn't have them. And the ice-cream/pudding/jello thing really isn't happening either. I do have a chocolate bar every couple of days and that seems to be enough to satisfy me. I am learning a lot about myself through this and find that I can do without. I need to try this on cheese (!) and bread. After Lent. I can add it to my list of things I don't eat. Perhaps doing it gradually rather than all at once is the key for me - and for you!

CactusFreek said...

I do the same dumb things, so i can't offer any mind blowing advise :o/

Kim Ayres said...

All the successful weight loss bloggers I know post every week, not just the good weeks.

Especially not just the good weeks.

When we have gained it is the hardest time to blog and admit we went off the rails. But that is PRECISLY the time we need to be blogging. It's the time when we have to publically account for our actions. We have to write down our excuses and see them for what they are.

However, to raise a thought about your comment on whether you like being big, I would turn it round and say, "do you believe you deserve to be thinnner and healthier?"

Because if uderneath you don't believe you deserve it, you will always end up sabotaging yourself.

There's a blogger I'm linked to on my site called Fat Lazy Guy. He recently hit his target of 220lbs.

He started out at over 500lbs.

I've been following him from the start, and through all the false starts and doubts until he found the groove.

But what he says is the key to his success, which is stuff we discussed in the early days of his journey, is we have to get to the root of the mental health issues. We have to discover and deal with the mental and emotional reasons we over eat. For if we don't, we will always end up sabotaging ourselves.

Do you truly feel you deserve to be a healthy size? Really and truly?

If not, seek emotional and mental help - it's what needs to be addressed